Sweet insanity

This feels like insanity
Doesn't make much sense to me
My head always gets in the way
When I hit the ground and try to pray
So many thoughts that have no use
Breaking free and running loose
In the end what worth is that?
In the end can I look back
And say all I did was just for You
Or some other motive to try and prove
My worth to You and all who see
All this toil for the glory of me
Yes this feels like insanity
To trust in what I cannot see
Sometimes I feel You far away
And doubt will try and make me pay
This all may look ridiculous
How foolish to have such blind trust
Where words will fail actions will rise
And show the heart that lies inside
It's all of You and none of me
Though it feels like insanity
I will choose to hope in what I can't see
Yes this feels like sweet insanity